lunedì 8 settembre 2014

Back in the desert

I just can't sleep. I guess I am still in (on?) London timezone... it is 1.47 in Abu Dhabi,  Milky Chance playing in the background. This was the soundtrack of my latest London adventure.

The floor of my flat is covered with many things: dirty laundry, shopping bags, reciepts... Maybe I am lazy or maybe I just don't want to pack away the smell of London, the memories of the last week with my friends... not just yet.

The recurring question while in London was: "When are you coming back Kami?" Only (!) 16 months ago the answer  escaped my mouth without hesitation: "Soon! A year? Max two!". Today after almost 1 and a half years (Emily, I learned- at last- how to say it properly in English!) I am not sure anymore... Abu Dhabi has been hard. No wait, that is an understatement. Abu Dhabi has been tremendously hard. Part of me is ashamed of such an expression. Afterall, I did not come to a war zone. I came to an amazing job, to a peaceful and prosperous country, to a city where, notwithstanding its strong traditional vibe and muslim character, it still allows me to be myself and enjoy a lifestyle that suits my personality and my western mentality.

Abu Dhabi has been hard because it meant taking touch decisions, leaving loved ones, saying goodbye to many people, to some for good ... making a leap of faith. It meant closing a chapter of my life. They say every end is a new beginning, so it has been... These last months passed with ups and downs but if anything it brought me closer to many people in ways I could not have hoped for.

"Loveland - by Milky Chance"

Abu Dhabi did not but confirm my belief that "Life is a journey,  not a destination", and if you haven't done so already please read the beautiful poem "Ithaka" by Cavafy...which sums up my journey (courtesy of my sister Dimi). Such journey, however, could not have been possible if I did not have the love and support of quite a few people. My mother, first and foremost, who always believes in me and in my decisions and who is the only one who will always love me unconditionally (thank you Leo for teaching me that). But as this is what you'd expect from your mother, especially one who is "awesome" as mine (and who knows me understands I do not use this word lightly), my gratitude goes to my friends out there, too many to list and who have not left me alone. Never.
They are scattered between England, Palestine (yes you sis!), Italy, Belgium, Abu Dhabi, the States, Germany, Switzerland, Dubai, Ireland, Macedonia, Greece, Qatar ...

They took planes, spent hours on skype, on whatsapp, viber... you name it, to make me feel closer. Our friendship, if anything, just became stronger and stronger over the past 16 months. They made the concept of distance a very relative one... so it is the thought of them that is keeping me awake now perhaps ...

I love you all dearly... it is 2.41 now. I kiss you all goodnight

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